Paralyzed by the quest

I realize it has been ages since I have written in my blog. It is not that I have not been observing things, but rather I have felt paralyzed from sharing them. The quest for a job is a truly taxing one for a law student in the New York area. I am overly qualified for legal jobs, but not qualified enough for jobs as an attorney. I have spent countless hours, not to mention a good sum of money, sending out resumes and finely crafted cover letters that hope to convince a variety of people I am an ideal candidate.

In order to preserve the validity of the those claims, I feel uncomfortable continuing on in my existence. Instead I desire to freeze myself in this state until someone finds it worthy of a job, and then, with my future more secure, I would begin to thaw out and return to a person who continues to develop and grow.

This particular mental reflex is rather difficult to deal with, and while I feel myself continuing on as a person, I still feel anchored down by the absolute necessity of finding employment. In addition, I am stricken with a compulsion to lash out at those who have passed me over, and the battle to not do so is one that is particularly vexing to me.

I write this to share and inform those who read this of my current situation. I am thankful I have the many pillars of support I have, but I grow weary and wary of leaning on them for too long or too much.

Please note the following observations have taken place in my life:

  1. Seeing “Sondheim on Sondheim” on Stephen Sondheim’s 80th Birthday was perhaps one of the greatest moments in my life. The performance brought me not only to tears, but to actual crying. It is a must see for anyone who loves his work.
  2. The “Percy Jackson” series is not bad, and I appreciated how the books made old mythology something of interest for their teen audiences. The movie was not good.
  3. The movie “Kick Ass!” is delightful and a must see for anyone who likes a good comic book adventure.
  4. The movie “Clash of the Titans” is truly terrible, as it manages to make the 1981 original seem not only classy, but also coherent.
  5. The difficulties I face, I do not face alone. I am unsure how I would handle them without BBE by my side.
  6. Dragon Age Origins was made to look far more complicated than it is. It is actually quite a delight to play, and satisfied my love/need of a game with magic for the PS3 quite well.


  1. Amy said,

    April 20, 2010 at 7:51 am

    I really feel for you, and I could very well be writing this same post in a year. Ah, recession. But I have no doubt you’ll be a great attorney, and I hope someone snaps you up soon!
    On another note, I’ll have to share your observations on Kick Ass with Van, as he for some reason hates the guy behind it. 🙂

  2. kyoske said,

    April 20, 2010 at 9:26 am

    Apparently the author of the Comic of “Kick Ass!” is a complete jerk. Still…the movie was a total thrill!

  3. Steve Phipps said,

    April 12, 2011 at 12:47 pm

    i like the pic it shows it all! where can I get a copy of it? I have a book ready to launch aimed at getting awareness out there about the problems of men getting raw deals in the courtroom over child custody, false accusations for alot of crimes and etc… called men are victims too! this is a good depiction of a man that just got steamrolled by the courts! please e-mail me if you would about where i can get a copy of it….thanks!

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