A Weight Lifted

So today I got my final grades. I passed, well I did better than passed, I got good grades. I didn’t worry too much about not passing, but it was in the back of my head. After all, wasn’t I slacking off by job hunting? Did I really pay as much attention as I should have? Questions like this haunted me. Thankfully, I am not no longer plagued by those questions, and so I am free to devote my energies to studying for the BAR.

I don’t really enjoy using this blog to just ruminate about my own persona life, rather I like to observe things in a more general way. However, I think it is good to document this feeling. I feel like I have been given a reprieve from a great weight.  It is temporary for now, as I must now hold the burden of studying/preparing for the BAR, but this certainly seems to fuel me with the strength I will most certainly need to do well on that exam.


A gift for my Mother

So today is Mother’s day. As a soon to be graduating law student I am financially strapped, and although I would buy my mother anything she asked, she never asks for anything. My mother gives so much, but it is hard for her to receive anything.


So I decided to give her something that technically cost me nothing but time. The following song was originally written for the Disney animated movie of “Aladdin.” It was cut, but the song was so good that it was not lost. Clay Aiken did a version of it when they decided to re-release Aladdin on DVD.

I felt this song was a perfect way to assure my parents that I despite the fact I’ve been a professional student, I will indeed soon be making them proud. The fact that the song comes from a Disney movie is of particular significance to me. My mother and I probably bonded over our love of Disney movies. We started to collect the all the Disney movies when I was a kid, in the hopes that we could show it to my kids some day. She used to take me to the Disney store all the time, and we would get interesting lithograph reproductions of each movie as they were all released on VHS. I am so happy that I have a mother like mine, and I felt that this song helped say a lot of things to her. Here are the lyrics:

Proud of your boy
I’ll make you proud of your boy
Believe me, bad as I’ve been, Ma
You’re in for a pleasant surprise

I’ve wasted time
I’ve wasted me
So say I’m slow for my age
A late bloomer, Okay, I agree

That I’ve been one rotten kid
Some son, some pride and some joy
But I’ll get over these lousin’ up
Messin’ up, screwin’ up times

You’ll see, Ma, now comes the better part
Someone’s gonna make good
Cross his stupid heart
Make good and finally make you
Proud of your boy

Tell me that I’ve been a louse and loafer
You won’t get a fight here, no ma’am
Say I’m a goldbrick, a goof-off, no good
But that couldn’t be all that I am

Water flows under the bridge
Let it pass, let it go
There’s no good reason that you should believe me
Not yet, I know, but

Someday and soon
I’ll make you proud of your boy
Though I can’t make myself taller
Or smarter or handsome or wise

I’ll do my best, what else can I do ?
Since I wasn’t born perfect like Dad or you
Mom, I will try to
Try hard to make you
Proud of your boy